John Barrowman (via childhoodgames)
AND TO EVERYONE:
HAVE AN EXTRAORDINARY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
You shouldn’t have to pretend to be enjoying yourself or having a good time. You shouldn’t have to pretend to be in a good mood, or pretend that you like yourself everyday. You shouldn’t have to pretend pretend pretend all the time.
I hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate that I can’t do anything well, I hate that I have to pretend in order for people to be around me.
I hate that at the end of the day I either want to cry or kill myself because I am so fucking sick of pretending that I like what I see when I look in the mirror or that I can have fun when with people. The pretending wears me out. I hate all of it.